Happy New Year 2012

May be it is not too late to wish all of you happy new year...time goes too fast...memanglah..it means that our age also increased ok..have you achieved what you have dreams last year? erm tak sure pulak..achieve ke tak..yg pasti manusia tak pernah satisfied apa yang ada...tapi as long as kita buat guide and measurement boleh je kan...

flash back year 2011, banyak yang make me so angry..ala -ala angry bird gitu...here and there angry..i need to face a lots of sadness, anxiety, furious, pain, lost dan macam-macam lagi lah...nak buat macamana, Allah nak menguji...sebagai hambaNya kena redha dan tabah menghadapi dugaan yang diberikan.

tahun 2012. it just a new year nothing special for me...just to change number 1 at the end of the year and replace with number 2...
but inside..i must to change a lot of things spiritually in my life..
find the depth of religious knowledge, change the style to a more healthy, healthy food, fresh air, regular exercise, soothe the mind, soul, the righteous son and wife, a good worker, good health, and money savings yang banyak... ;( but right now the reality is...i got back pain dan never ending stress..huhu..this is baru January ok...and tak sampai pertengahan some more...huhu.. how how...

i need to find fresh air in terms of my career. This is too good to be true.

I think for this year i need to take more vitamin, berurut or spa - this one i dont care, i need someone to urut a whole of my body...especially my back...urgent ok..hei puan cepat-cepat berurut badan dah masuk angin.., find another job, trying to preggy again (fobia but have to), planning to one more house ( yang landed lah pulak ye Mr hubby?), InsyaAllah nak terawih full term lah ye..jgn ngelat la.., eratkan silaturrahim dengan kawan-kawan lama dan baru ( i call this social life le kan..because for last year i call no life), and and the last but not least i am happy to make my father and my adik-adik happy...of course la..

to my love hubby ..erm this is secret la mana boleh berceritera dan bercengkerama kat sini..nanti Mr Hubby marah i...because dia dah cakap dia tak suka open the secret of life...janji kita pi jalan-jalan banyak sikit for this year...no more reason...ok. too good to be true..

ok thats all la hari ini..got to go right now..

Today I am Speechless

Apa taknyer something was happening affected indirectly in my life..nak cakap more pun tak boleh so lebih baik aku mendiamkan dirikan...in others word diam jer...huhu...what's the life???

Sigh is frustation without words...

After long time did'nt update my blog today macam buang 'tabiat' gatal all my fingers nak update. For this entry just to show about my feeling about my life...sigh sigh sigh...do not mengeluh like that tak baik..but what should i do, you cannot says anything, you just can see, smile, sometimes buat jokes, pretending nothing happened, absord all the stuff into your life and who knows what is hapenning inside your body/heart..its hurt ..very hurt..that is my feeling right now...

For the last 4 months i faced with miscarriage again!!..for second time..OMG..frust jangan cakaplah...sedih a lots. Tak perlulah nak cakap yang selebihnya..masuk emergency room pun punya lama tunggu dari sakit yg amat terus tak sakit..i motivate diri sendiri utk tabah to faced semua ni...Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk diriku...you have to be strong ok...(bercakap dengan diri sendiri..boleh pulak macam tu)

I always think about the flow of my life included my carier...ermm, I think right now i need something like green place, ada sungai, or laut or maybe siput, just wanna see bukit, batu or berkelah kat mana-mana...maybe kalau tak ada benda-benda tu semua maybe can tengok itik ke, ikan..or something like that..pleaseeee....

Im so tired with all benda-benda yang selalu I tengok..maybe..

Carrot cheese cake ordered by Kak Lin and kek kelapa pelangi for my sister

Jumaat semalam kak lin order carrot cheese cake untuk makan2 dengan famili dia...erm harap2 kak lin sukalah ye carrot cake tu...terima kasih kak lin...enjoy the cake..

kek yg sebelum ditabur parutan coklat..

pastu promise dengan adik shahida pulak nak wat kek utk dia...tadaa kek kelapa tp aku yg dok mkn..bawak utk officemate sikit..n aku pun dok makan sekali..nampaknya mcm kena wat kek yg baru jer lah utk adik nanti...

lepas dipotong...inside got color2 gitu...next time no more red, may be just put green and pandan paste...kek ni sgt gebu n x manis..lemak plak tu...delicious

the cake was topped by choc ganache...and make it a very perfect taste...simple, tasteful, n happy...

Choc Moist Cake

Sempena dengan birthday fida my officemate, aku rasa macam nak buat choc moist cake untuk dia...and the best things is dia beli semua barang2 yg atas kek tu, oreo dan segala bagai..haha..what ever la fida..asalkan budak kecik bahagia...aku happy, i hope kawan-kawan aku pun hepi..the cake is for happy person right??...

I was so happy to play with my nozzle for that decoration..hilang stress keje dpt buat mende2 nih semua...what a beautiful creation from Allah related to our feeling...pelikkan dpt buat cake hilang stress...kek tu if perasan akan nampak ada x kemas sikit frosting tepi tu..tu sbb tersangkut something dlm freeze..n mmg dah x leh wat pe dah..apa pun fida..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...lalalala..

muka budak besday...happy lah tu..ekekeke control jgn x control...

Mini Fruit Tart

Mini fruit tart ni telah diorder oleh my bos Puan Hamiza and Ray...Harap semua orang suka lah ye fruit tart tu...kesian Ray accident sampai bengkak2 tangan, apa pun tahniah ray dah jadi tunangan org...Puan Hamiza pun tahniah lah dpt menyiapkan bunga yang amat cantik di atas pelamin tu..what a beautiful flower...thanks to both of you with the order.

ni plak utk makan sendiri..hehe

Carrot Cheese Cake untuk potluck office...

Hari tu ade wat pot luck and farewell Hathib di office, everybody was so happy, farewell happy?? hmmm so many things happaned in my office and i was speechless..new transformation, new new and new.. everything..we have to accept it...as a result of the happinest pot luck i came with my carrot cheese cake...laku jugak...thanks to everybody bawa smua makanan masing2 yg amat lazat sehingga tinggal sambal belacan je...tu pun kitaorang tapau sambal belacan tu..heee...di dalam cake ni ade carrot, walnut, pineapple cube, and frosting with cheese...nyummy nyummy....cake yg sama di order oleh Su untuk makan2 bersama family tercinta..thanks Su...